Why I'm Still can't accept it?

Friends.. What should i do now?? if i alone, i will think about my late brother.. 
i don't want to be sad..but i can't.. sometime i will cry..my heart so hurt to accept it..
Ya Allah.. please give me some strength to try accept it slowly...
and when i call my mother.. she too said like me..
My mother always think about my late brother.. But i don't tell what have i feel to my mother.. i don't want my mother will be sad.. i just keep quiet and hear what my mother said..
I always give support to my mother for calm down and always pray for my late brother..
But i don't have anybody to give support for me..it is because, no body know about my feeling..
I'm always settle it by my self..
That why i always sad and not in mood if i'm alone..
I Love My Family..Love you all so much...